On a completely different note.... I had a really great but somewhat disturbing conversation with my daughters last night...well actually mostly the oldest two although Little B was there too...Kaori told me that she doesn't think her grandmother (my ex's
Kaori was in tears as she tells me more .....the poor kid was like a dam that was finally bursting!.... she is crying as she tells me that she has felt unloved by her grandmother AND her father for years.....talk about breaking a mama's heart...if that woman was anywhere near me last night there would have been a brawl...or at least one serious smackdown; that old broad would have gone down fast and hard boooyaah!...the people's elbow would have come down fast and hard on that bitch...jes saying....
In the end I had a really good connecting conversation with the grrrlz...and the grrrlz connected too...we were one big loving, crying, hugging mass of estrogen (lucky for Mr T that he was at work hehehe)...I told Kaori everything that I could : that this was their issue that they were unfairly and cruelly taking out on her, that they did in fact love her but they unfortunately still have a lot of personal and spiritual growth to do, that there is nothing more she can do and that none of their behaviour is her fault, that she has so many other family members (from my side) and even family friends that love her and that she can always count on, I also said that you don't have to like or even love someone because they are blood (but that she should stand up for herself but always remember to be kind...even when others are not), actions speak louder than anything else, you cannot control other people's actions but you can control your own....I finished by telling her that she can always talk to me and that she is always loved...She then said "I always feel loved by you, Mom....and Mr T too. He is more of a dad than I have ever had." This mama then became a blubbery mess...I guess that grrrl is a lot like me!
Other than that shite...this weekend was wonderful and I'll prolly tell y'all about it in another post because right now this chiquita needs to dig in her garden!
loooky looky how cute those kids are...how could anyone treat that sweet face badly?